And here we are at the end of all this

Isnt it crazy how time flys...

How you blink once and so much has changed...

How you grow and mature and in so many ways change who YOU are as an individual...

This summer has been one of extreme change for me.. I look at life a lot differently then I did last year.. and I cant say this year seems like it's going to be any easier school related.. but I am looking forward to a few things being different...

My friends have changed a lot and my  views on friendship's has changed. Like all the kiddy crap we go through, I will not put up with anymore. I dont know why a teenager thinks when on little thing goes wrong its the end of their life as they know it... it's ridiculous.. and it's gonna end. I love my friends and they give me strength but I wont put up with so called "friends" always bringing me down. So from things that have happend I have learned to see past a pretty face and read people for who they really are.. and let me tell you what, there are some amazing people out there, if you just give them a chance.

I'm starting to get a little worried about my future.. I'm not sure what I'm looking for anymore. I used to be set on being a foresic scientist but since I'm pretty horrible at math and science.. I kinda gave that one up.. but I'm still very intrested in the criminology field and working as an investigator... that or I would love to do something like owning or managing a business, or maybe something in cosmotology.. as you can see my innntrests vary.. so I'm working on trying to find out what suits me best... and that vision is still very hazzy and I'm already a Junior.. soon to be a Senior and on my way to college.. scary!!

Well thats all I have for now, I get to get up early and start an online class then head to work around 11.. should be one crazy day...

till the fingers meet the keys...

<3 Jesi

I'm 76% Southern

Body:
(X) lived in the country?
(x) lived south of the mason-dixon line?
(x) shot a gun?
(x) own[ed] a gun?
(x) hunted?
(x) driven a truck?
subtotal= 6

( )chewed tobacco?
(x) driven a tractor?
(x) gone camping?
(x) listened to country?
(x) owned a country cd?
(x) fished?
(x)worn a cowboy hat?
(x)worn cowboy boots?
Subtotal=7

(x) ridden a horse?
(x) seen a farm?
(x) worked on a farm?
( ) lived on a farm?
(x) owned a farm animal?
( ) worn a carhart?
(x) lived in a trailer?
(x)worked on a car?
Subtotal= 6

(x) seen a nascar race?
( ) been to a nascar race?
(x) been to an oval track?
( ) seen a demolition derby?
(X) seen a figure 8 race?
(x) talked on a cb radio?
( ) had a cb in your car?
(x) seen smokey and the bandit more than ten times
subtotal= 5


(x) Riden a Dirtbike?
( ) owned more than two cars that don't run?
(x) been to a junkyard
(x) drank beer?
(x) Party in the woods where only trucks can get?
(x) been in a ford vs. chevy argument?
( ) 00.23.
( ) gone cow tipping?
Subtotal= 5

( ) had to ponder whether your family said tire or tower?
( ) been sprayed with deer pee?
(x) wear camo?
(x) ridden a 4-wheeler?
( ) owned a cabin?
(X) had to take a bath in the river?
Subtotal= 3

( ) drank white lightening?
(X) had your whole family on the front porch?
(X) thought that wal-mart was the coolest place ever?
(X) own a rebel flag?
(x) eaten deer meat?
(x) cooked over a fire?
(x) been muddin'?
Subtotal= 6

TOTAL= 38



Now times your score by 2 and post it as "i'm _% southern".




If your southern score is over 50, you can officially call yourself southern.

Love is... Put Pretty Well

love is when you cry but you still want him
its when he ignores you
and& you still cant stop thinking about him
its when he loves another girl
but you still smile and& say youre happy for him
love is when you want to let him go, but no matter what
that boy is the only thing on your mind.

What you get when you play a country song backwords

For a complicated girl in a complicated world

So I havent posted in like forever... been busy lately and havent really had much to say. Plus I spend most of my time on myspace. Which by the way isnt all it's cracked up to be. It steals hours of your time that you could be spending doing anything more productive and it's a host website for teenage drama and ridiculous crap. So when teenagers start finding something better to do, that will be a miraculous day. I'm guilty as charged though, I spend more time on myspace than anyone ever should. But hey, it's fun, then it's boring, then you change your layout and it's fun again. lol. Even Xanga, b/c now I've wasted even more of my time writing in an online journal that practically no one reads anymore because they're to busy on myspace. So in my conclusion, we all need to get a life. especially me...

So not much is new in my life other than, I pretty much live at Trio's now, ask anyone. I'm taking guitar classes at the church, kinda.. I really need a guitar. And I basically am just starting to get out there and have some fun. I've decided that I'm not going to let anyone run my life. I'm going to just be me. I refuse to change who I am and what I'm about to make anyone happy. And who knows where I'll end up next.

For a complicated girl I'm not that hard to figure out...

You know you love me!

-Jesi